Sal is the godfather to one of his old friends oldest daughters. She is being confirmed today in the Catholic Church and I can't go. I emotionally can't. I had a babysitter lined up, was going to go but I can't. I cannot step into a place of worship when I am still so angry with HIM. I have read a lot lately about HIM that HE has a master plan. It might be new to us but it was HIS plan all the time. I am not at that place yet. I hope one day to get to that place but I cannot today. Maybe in a few months I can but for today I cannot. I don't like HIM right now. Yes that is selfish. But I don't. I am still very angry at HIM and although I know my anger will subside but for today I am angry.
So I am being selfish. I am sending Sal on his own to the church to see the confirmation of a beautiful young girl. I am sorry that I can't be there, but I cannot.
18 hours ago