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Guess which one, won?

good times.. but hey I get to pick out a new phone..

The final .. the last

HOME PARTY FUNDRAISER I will have this year. And in 2010. I'm out of the home party fundraisers.

But from now until the 10th of November, I am teaming up with a lady from Epicure Selections.

Everything that you purchase, the commission will be donated to the Ride to Conquer Cancer in my daddy's name. Help me reach my goal.

If you can please peruse the catalog at Epicure Selections and support me in my quest to conquer cancer. If you would like to place an order, please email me at jsminardi@shaw.ca and I will place that for you! But if you can't make it to the catalog party, and still want to support kicking cancer's arse, please goto Conquer Cancer

Thanks so much. This will be the final home party for Jenny. I mean it. I really do.

Have a super day!

All about Me.. :)

Remember this? This post way way back when? About something, something I couldn't talk about?

Well here it is.

I am in the Report to the Donors for the Alberta Cancer Foundation's 2009 Donor Report.

I am very proud of what I have accomplished in this past year. It has been a hard year. A year of triumphs and tribulations.. But I accomplished something pretty big.

Anyways, here it is.

Please take a minute to read the annual report to the donors, and especially my pages. Page 17/18 .. I look cute don't I? Almost like I know what I'm doing?

Have a super day!

Happy Anniversary..

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad. I'm pretty sure you would much rather be here then where you are Daddy. Mom is doing crown molding to celebrate. She knows it was your plan to have crown molding in every room of the house, so she asked her brother to come in and do it. So when you look down from where you are tonight, you'll see a beautifully painted room (you taught mom well ;)) and crown moldings.

Happy 39th Anniversary. Wish you could be here.

Oh and Happy Thanksgiving too. I remember last year. You were on the Dex steroid. It was probably the funniest thanksgiving of my life. I have never seen anyone, not even my husband, who you know can EAT, eat that much food. What was it 3 big super helpings of the bird? I laughed and laughed and I will remember it always. And your gooofy, 'hey I'm dying, this could be my last thanksgiving and I love turkey so I'm going to eat it all and more' smile.

Love you. Miss you. Wish you were here.

Whole.

It has been a long hard road. It has been filled with twists, turns, upside downs and rightside ups. It has been filled with tears, and grief. Laughter and sadness. It has been a long 3 years. If you know me, I mean know me, you know that I have been dealing with lots of stuff. Depression, anxiety, grief for 3 years. That's a long time to feel unwell.

It started with my youngest being born. Something snapped in my head. I wasn't me anymore. I was me, but not me. I was sad. I had moments of happiness that helped with the sadness, but for the most part I was just sad. Then when I "snapped" out of PPD, my dad and our family recieved the devastating news that he had terminal cancer. Right back to depression. Crappy times. Then again, happy and sad mixed together. Yesterday November 8th, was the 8month 'deathverisary' of dad dying. Its funny that yesterday, the 8th of November was a huge turning point for me.

I still miss my Daddy so much but today, I feel whole again. I feel whole. I feel happy. I feel like the light at the end of the tunnel, is just that LIGHT. It isn't a train, it isn't a massive blip. It is LIGHT. And I love the light.

So for those of you who are dealing with similar issues, I just want to say it does get easier. It will click. Life will be happy again.

Life is good. I am Jennifer, and I am WHOLE! I am me again. I like me again.

She gets you right here...

Driving to dance, 6 o'clock last night, I'm tired, cranky, have been in the car for what seems like ever. And my 5 year old see's Christmas Lights on. Not a big deal, they are pretty. But then like a tornado she hits me..

Mommy, this year I want to have lots and lots of christmas lights on the front and the back of the house. I want all the twinkly lights. Lots of them.

I still think this is pretty innocent, so I say, why honey? (like most parents would) and then I get the bombshell. I was just about to turn onto the highway too, so just imagine that..

Well mommy, because that way Grandpa and Nonno can see our house from heaven. Huge gulping sobs come out of me. I'm trying to concentrate on driving, blinking tears away like mad, etc etc. And then I think, man you are one smart cookie, kiddo. Lets make this year the most twinkly, brightest christmas light display of our lives so far.

So if you are in Cranston in December, look for our house, you'll be able to see it from heaven.